Feeling Butterflies And Anxiety.

Hello everyone, it's good to be back! Now, just a warning real quick. From now on, I won't be really making these a "daily" thing, I'll try to keep making these to best of my ability.

Sooo, today was pretty good. Although, I've been trying to compress a video for so long, I think I'm going to get a headache. 😣

I've done my daily walk today, but where I live, it's 100 degrees out here! I almost passed out on the side of the road! I didn't do my sit ups today, mostly because it's the weekend and for this stupid heat, don't worry, I'll do them tomorrow.

Here's where the real blog begins:

My crush messaged me today, I always feel butterflies for every time they choose me to talk to! I've always thought that I was terrible at socializing, but they let me be me, and that makes it a whole lot easier to talk to them... I always wanted them to see me in real life, don't worry it's not an "online relationship." They're actually in a school that's the rival of my school, I've only seen a picture of them once, their camera is messed up pretty bad. 😖

The truth is, we dated once, but they left due to a family error. They left me because they thought that we'd never speak again, I was truly sad that day, because I had so much faith... After a month or two later, they texted me again! I was so excited, we talked all day at the time. We talk to each other like we're flirting, they call me amazing, sweet, and kind. I tell them the same things, but they don't have confidence of thinking that way, I want to make them feel better!

I want to tell them that I miss them, but I'm scared if they already moved on or not... Truthfully, I want to take them away from all of the pain that happens to them, I want to be the one that truly cares for them...

I just texted them "when will we be meeting?" they answered with "we will eventually." Should I be excited, or scared? Who knows anymore!

I think this will be a wrap, I can't really talk about anything else. Anyways, here's another short story!

The boy was walking through the cold, damp, windy forest. His scarf was flowing in his face, he was puffing out air from the cold, and he was looking for a place for warmth. He looks ahead, he sees a cabin, small but wide, he immediately heads towards it with a smile on his face. He had a key in hand, he thought "this could be it," he finally got to the door. He looks at the key, it had a heart-shaped design, then he looked at the door. He puts the key in, turned it, and...

It wasn't the correct one, he looked at the key with fear in his eyes. He threw it to the other side of the cabin "Ouch" he heard. He ran to the other side to see a woman, brown hair coming out of her hood. He couldn't see her face, she was rubbing her head in pain while groaning. He knelt in front of her, she looked at him, it was dead silence then, no wind, no breathing, nothing. He went to cup her cheek, but a force grabbed him, pulling him back from the woman.

She reached out to him as he was being pulled away, he was never to be seen again. At that moment, the woman went brain dead, there were no thoughts in her anymore, not even emotions. "Not worthy" a voice said "Never to be loved" it said closer to her ear. She lived with these thoughts for the rest of her life, she was cursed by the great force of...

Anxiety.

~Sheepwithemotions.

Feeling Joy.

I know it wasn't long ago that I posted my introduction, but I want to tell you guys about my day.

Today I overslept a little, I didn't wake up until 12:00, I need to get out of these sleeping habits.

I did as many sit ups as I can until I cracked sweat, I hope this will be a better start for my future body. Although, I still don't believe in myself to keep this up, I'll try to get in the routine of that to show it off to my bullies at school.

12:01 AM

The coffee was quite old this morning, I got a little grumpy from it, and we had no cereal. (I'm still sort of starving) Before I even got onto this website, I got inspired from a story on "ACTUALLY HAPPENED's" channel about a girl who lost her mother and went through a lot with it. She created a blog to tell people about it, I thought "Why not try it too?"

2:30 PM

I also got Minecraft for Windows 10, I'm glad that I can finally cross play with my friends! I wish Hypixel was added though, that way I could play on their Skywars again!

I played a couple of rounds of Murder Mystery on The Hive, I kinda get a bit shaky when I'm mad, I'm not very good at it.

3:13 PM

I'm thinking about making another drawing, but I already know that I have way too many unfinished ones in my journal. Here's one for an example:

Yeah, it's a little lewd, but I try to practice on these types of things. Trust me though, my other drawings are way better than this one. This drawing is actually one of my first good drawing of a kiss, I mostly searched it up on how to draw it better, and here is what I got.

I'm sorry if this one is getting a little boring, I'm actually typing this as my day goes on. Next time, I'll write another one by the end of the day.

I might close this one out, folks! Thanks for taking your time on reading this, here's your daily emotion story:

The girl sits up in her bed, looking around to see if the coast was clear. She gets up out of her bed with a smack of her feet when they hit the floor. For once, no demon or anxiety grabs her from beneath. She giggles in excitement of a new day, her smile was brighter than the sun beaming through her window. She walks out the door, to be surrounded by "Yellow Joy Wisps" they all greeted her as she walks around them. They love her smile, they love her clothes and looks, they are her only friends, and the only friends she'll ever need.

~Sheepwithemotions.

My Introduction.

💖This is my first post on here, be easy with me.💖

Welcome, you'll know me as "sheepwithemotions" the reason why is that, it's because I want to vent about things that go bad in my life or things that make me happy. Or, I'll possibly post my art on here to see what you guys think, or someone can give me tips for it. Here, I'll tell you guys all about me:

⬝I'm not really a social person, I'm mostly in my room all day when it comes to summer.

⬝I draw quite a lot, digitally or traditionally, it doesn't really matter to me. Art is art.

⬝I'm quite overweight and I try to participate in an exercise routine, but I'm sort of convinced it's not working.

⬝My family and I sort of have issues when it comes to other family members, but I still love them.

Right now, my Dad is the only parent supporting me here, my Mother was quite 'crazy'. Her and my Dad would argue quite a lot, but they both separated two years ago, I think, I can't really remember.

⬝I like to write stories or fanfictions in my free time, only on Wattpad or Quotev. Maybe I'll post some short ones on here to show even more on how I feel.

⬝I enjoy horror as a category, it just intrigues me on how there are so many horror idols out there, and ways they kill their victims. (Too much?)

⬝I have a YouTube channel, but I'm not really inspired to post on there, I'm not very happy on how my newest videos turn out. If you guys want me to post it on here, let me know.

⬝I love to play video games in my free time as well, mostly ones with story (Detroit:Become Human is my favorite). I'm honestly a huge fan of Quantic Dream, the details of their games are insane! I'm also a regular when it comes to Minecraft, it's so addicting sometimes.

⬝You guessed it, I also like Anime, but I don't watch it too much. I like, Osomatsu-San, Black Butler, OHHC, and Attack On Titan.

I think that's really it on what there is to know about me. I'm really excited to be working on here, I hope you guys will enjoy what I post and come vent with me!

Sincerely, sheepwithemotions.